Monday, December 21, 2009




I wonder if I should join an atheists group. I wonder if I am an atheist. I have concluded that God is unknowable, but doesn't that make me an agnostic? I find the certainty presented by hard atheism just as arrogant and repulsive as the hard dogmatic beliefs of many faiths. I much prefer to stare into the darkness of what is unknowable and wonder.



I can consume or I can produce, and both have their merits. This production helps me to organize my thoughts and decide on my point of view, and also creates something permanent for me to review later. For instance, reading my mention of my depression all the way back in 2008 makes me realize that this is something I struggle with within myself, and that the conditions of my life aren't what causes it. This empowers me, because now I know to focus on myself in order to win this struggle. I feel good lately, sometimes, and I feel that I am winning. Consumption later.

A return to this shotgun




I return to this odd shotgun of a journal after having revisited my posts of 2008 and feeling some sympathy for my voice. I also like the conceit, turning consumption into production, and I love blogging on a mobile device. Hilariously enough, I write this in a public space, but am writing for noone but myself. Indeed, I would likely be mortified if someone I knew read this blog. At the same time I have my full name attached to it, along with details of my life that would make me instantly recognizable to any acquaintance. That exposure both excites and scares me. Perhaps I'll change it. We'll see.

Tizzle Wizzle Show (VIDEO): James Franco Guests On Knife-Wielding Kids Show


That's the funny part, buddy. The joke is on you; we're all laughing because you're grossed out. Get used to it, it's going to be your life for a long, long time.
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Tizzle Wizzle Show (VIDEO): James Franco Guests On Knife-Wielding Kids Show


I rejoice in both.
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Ted Kennedy died today. I didn't know him. May he rest in peace, if that's what happens.

Life is crazy now, turned upside-down. I'm staying at my parents' house, but all my things are still at my apartment. Lisa is thinking, enjoying her time alone. We'll see what happens.
It's so sad.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009